I went into a room I'd never been in before, to experience how Thea felt when she first arrived off the train and came into her hotel room, after she found out Hedda and Tesman were still away ...
I'm so alone here. Here in this empty room. Its so quite, so empty. I'm used to having the constant noise of the children and Eilert always talking to me. I've missed him so much this past week. He has consumed my every thought, to the point where I couldn't bear it. He bought me here, I knew I had to follow him, I couldn't doubt my love for him.
The whole way down on the train, I kept picturing me running into his arms and him holding me, while he reassured me that he would never drink again because he valued our relationship too much. So my heart sank when I stepped off the train into this dismal town, where I knew no one apart from the Tesman family, who weren't even home. I stood at the front door for over an hour, hoping, praying, that they would come home. Eventually I gave up and made my way to the hotel, weeping in desperation the whole way.
So here I am, in this room, alone and desperate. George and Hedda are away, I've left my home and my husband and I have no idea where Eilert is. I only just managed to get the money together to pay for this room. I have nothing in the world but my undying love for Eilert. I can only hope that I find him tomorrow ...
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